I’m Lacie. I’m 16 years old, and I’m from central New Jersey. What goes on in my head is crazy, and even I don’t understand it.

I have always been self conscious about my weight, and how I look. I have never been happy, and I have never felt comfortable with my body. Its always felt wrong. I want to know what its like to feel okay with myself.

I’ve been through this before. Last  year was pretty bad, but this year its worse. Its not just a phase anymore. I’m constantly thinking about losing weight, exercising, and eating less. It scares me sometimes, but I know its for the best. I’m going to be much happier.

I starve, I exercise, I binge, I purge, I cut, and I cry. I try very very hard not to purge or binge, but it happens sometimes. More so lately. That scares me too, but like I said, I can’t seem to sort out everything thats going on inside my own head. Sometimes I wish I could make it all stop, but I know its for the best. I’ll be happy when I’m smaller.

I got back into this January of 2011, after last year I got cut short because my mother intervened. I plan to continue to lose weight, even through the summer. I’m not just looking to drop 50 lbs for the summertime. No, thats not me. I am looking to get down to 95 lbs for good. I would really like 100 by about June of course, but that isn’t my main goal anymore. I want to be happy with myself. I want to feel comfortable and okay. I want to weigh less.

So here I am, a pretty lonely, pretty desperate, and pretty confused girl… looking for a way out. I’m here for inspiration, and social connection to other girls (or guys) just like me. It helps to know that I am not in this alone.

I love to look at thinspiration pictures, but what I love most is reading personal posts. It’s my absolute favorite, because it really helps me connect and relate, and even gives me ideas about diets and exercises and foods. I love to read about your day and what you ate and how much you exercised. I love to hear about the guy you have a crush on and the girl who’s being rude. I love to give advice, and I really just love to talk.

I’m here to stay, so don’t be shy. I love getting messages… helps me to remember that other people care and understand. Goodluck to all the beauties on here. I hope you find what you’re looking for soon <3

-Lacie